This is a detail of the woodblock print Eating Outside is available here.
"Many people think that what's written in the Bible has mostly to do with getting people into heaven-getting right with God, saving their eternal souls. It does have to do with that, of course, but not mostly. It is equally concerned with living on this earth-living well, living in robust sanity. In our Scriptures, heaven is not the primary concern, to which earth is a tag-along afterthought. "On earth as it is in heaven" is Jesus' prayer." Introduction to the book of Proverbs by Eugene Peterson
I have read through the book of Proverbs over and over since I was in high school. I read these lines this morning;
Fear-of-God is a school in skilled living-
first you learn humility, then you experience glory.
Those lines just really ring true to me and come as a great comfort. Living a life where you are doing what you can to hang out with God, trying to see through Her eyes, letting your heart break with what breaks His heart, leads you into water way over your head again and again. Living this way brings you to many moments where the dominant feeling is "this is just too much for me" And it is in that moment, if you can close the door to another freak out session, you will hear the voice saying; Too much for you but not for me and that is the whole point! I am in this with you, we are going to do this together.
What happens in this walking with God process is you end up with a real relationship. This relationship is with a supernatural being that has your best intrests in mind. And not only that, God changes you in the process and at the same time becomes the benchmark for all the other relationships in your life.
This is about you are becoming who you where always meant to be, you becoming that person that fear had been so effectively blocking off for so long.