Thomas Merton said, Art allows us to find ourselves and lose ourselves at the same time. I love this because it reminds me of how conflicted real life is. Jesus told us we must lose our life in order to find it.
It seems to be the case that things in my life often seem to be falling apart and coming together all at the same time. There is this constant flickering of almost superhuman strength coupled together with an almost crippling sense of vulnerability, here today and gone tomorrow.
I was skimming through some of my past blog entries to give myself a sense of what my flow has been when I stumbled into the phrase; robust sanity. This was plucked from a Eugene Peterson essay in his beautiful Message translation of the Bible. I will quote again the proverb I shared in that blog back in December that is Peterson's translation.
Fear-of-God is a school in skilled living-
first you learn humility, then you experience glory.
This is a good reminder to me - that this constant back and forth of extremes that I feel in my life, is what real living has always been about, and will continue to be. It may be the back and forth of God's holy sand paper as he works away at my jagged corners and stubborn lumps.