"We do not look to the things that are seen but the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are passing away but the things that are unseen are eternal."
This is a quote from the bible (some where after the four gospels but where exactly I'm not sure anymore) that has haunted me for years, infact, it has become a guide for my life. We live in a post enlightenment age where we think of the physical substance of our lives as real, more real than the mysterious whispers that flutter just beyond our peripheal vision. The bible is packed with wierd unexplainable shit like when Jesus told his close friends that where in his inner orbit to feed all the people collected on the hill side that numbered into the thousands when they really didn't have anything near what would be needed to perform such a task. What they had to work with was what they found in the lunch sack of one single young boy. That's what they had, that's what they used and every one got fed and there was a ton left over. What part of that equation makes sense to you? It is impossible and yet it is the path God choose. That story is not the only one like it, the whole fucking bible is built like that. Ordinary people doing impossible things because God pulls them into impossible situations where they are forced to go way beyond themselves and into God's checking account. Our family is currently living like this and it is kicking the shit out of me and I am OK with that because the less shit in me the better.
I have been launched out into an incredible adventure with Brenda and the children and all the people that come in and out of our life like busboys and actors. All we can do every day is to remain present to the moment we are presently in. This is really living, this is really happening and it is as scary as heaven.