— Kurt Vonnegut
When I am working up an idea for a new painting I am in a very vulnerable place. I don't like it there but if I don't go there are simply no new paintings. The cool part is when something new begins to happen. It is a little like finding a new little trail in the woods you begin to follow to you don't know where.
Remember that song by Bob Dylan, Knocking On Heaven's Door. That is also what it is to making drawings for a new painting. The art work is after all a door way into the spiritual. The paintings and drawings are like a semi-permeable membrane that divides the spiritual from the physical world.
When you are scratching around on paper with pencil and charcoal, when you are brushing, daubing and scraping oil on and off the panal you are making this membrane thinner and more translucent. When you scratch long enough and caress with enough love and tenderness, heaven starts to leak through.