Lately I have been feeling the resistance to good things that want to open up into my life. It seems that just before something really wonderful and significant is about to unfold I get swamped by dark and troubled feelings. The voice of this resistance says something like, "what's the point? Who do you think you are? No one cares and besides this whole thing is something you made up in your head and it's about to collapse right our from under you". You know how life is. You have your plans and routines and yet you don't know the out come. You plan the party but will any one will show up?
I have learned (the hard way) to push through these troubled feelings, ignore the negative thoughts. Just get dressed and show up. Again and again I have found wonderful and satisfying rewards on the other side of that hill. It truly feels like a battle much of the time and I am so thankful for the good people around me at this time in my life that help me stay true to my course.