I some times get lost and forget who I am. Some times I come across some one who has accomplished something amazing and I am bowled over. I am humbled by what I see and feel that what I have done seems paltry in comparison. The humility part is good; the jealousy part's not.
It takes intention to step back from the emotions and negative thinking to regain perspective and remember who I am. It takes effort to remember the path that I have been called to is different, not better or worse, different. I use the words calling because I do believe God has a "call" on our lives that we may or may not be aware of. We may be living out our calling or we may not be. I know each person is unique and has a unique life path to walk. We can be inspired by each other and humbled but we must not get confused and try to live someone else life or crave what they have. Why am I writing about this? Because I am tempted by this confusion all the time. I want a better understanding of how this all works so I can steer clear of the trap of jealousy and the despondency that wants to grow inside of me like mold. I want to simply do the best I can with what I have been given every day and let that be enough.