This quote from Julia Cameron says so beautifully what I have been experiencing my entire life, a constant shifting and changing. I am in a season of trial right now in my life which is causing me to do a lot of extra introspection. I am taking long walks, spending a lot of time alone writing and reading and trying to bring my life into order. I know that I have made a lot of mistakes and I have created a lot of messes in my life that stem from this quicksilver shape-shifting Cameron is describing in this passage.
Earlier today I was attempting to organize my flat files that hold my prints and drawings. It was so difficult because some of these works go back now thirty years and I have tried on all different kinds of styles and subject matter which makes organizing this inventory very difficult and time consuming. But difficult or not I simply must press on because I can not allow chaos to just have its way.
I went to church this morning. The church I go to has a large amount of elderly people. A big pip organ and definitely no drum kit! This is the kind of church where most of these men are wearing a suit and a tie. I was wearing black jeans, a t-shirt and a vintage black leather jacket this morning. I like the contrast of going to a church where things feel like they haven’t changed much since the 1940’s because I find it a good foil to my mutability. That community cautious of change somehow helps me to strike a better balance in my life.