I read a beautiful and compelling passage from a favorite book in the bath tub at 5:30AM (And accidentally dropped the book into the tub and now I have yet another favorite book that is forever swollen.) The Book is Falling Upward by Richard Rohr and I have decided to share the passage word for word here because it is both beautifully written and extremely compelling.
"Just remember this: no one can keep you from the second half of your life except yourself. Nothing can inhibit your second journey except your own lack of courage, patience, and imagination. Your second journey is all yours to walk or to avoid. My conviction is that some falling apart of the first journey is necessary for this to happen, so do not waste a moment of time lamenting poor parenting, lost job, failed relationship, physical handicap, gender identity, economic poverty, or even the tragedy of any kind of abuse. Pain is part of the deal. If you don't walk into the second half of your own life, it is you who do not want it. God will always give you exactly what you truly want and desire. So make sure you desire, desire deeply, desire yourself, desire God, desire everything good, true, and beautiful."
Please read this passage as many times as necessary and let it take effect. In fact, if this passage resonates with you, for Christ's sake get ahold of the book and read it a few times (in the bath tub or out) and let it give you the kick in the as you need right now to get on with your life.
(accompanying image painted by Rene Magritte titled The School Master)