About a year and a half ago I had my first real manic episode that lasted about 6 weeks. Depression didn't hit 'till 14 months later. As of today I have been out of the depression zone for 17 days. I know this number because I am keeping a mood chart that tracks how I'm doing whether up or down. Normal is in the middle which is were I am now. I have to say I really dig feeling like myself again especially after I spent most of the summer in depression. Everything around me looked awful. Everything in my life looked like it was falling apart. The scary part of that kind of thinking is how our thoughts determine our future. During those days it seemed like there was no light at the end of the tunnel, there was just more and more tunnel.
Through this summer voyage of darkness, my wife Brenda had the patience of a saint. She gave countless pep talks in the morning (which was my worst time of day). She was pumping up a bike tire that would only go flat again a few hours later, but bless her heart for trying. She kept reminding me that I had never been depressed before so I didn't have any tools -- which was true.
Along with Brenda, there were a number of people that became part of my support network this summer. First there were the guys in my men's prayer group. They did a great job lifting me up in prayer for God's healing. There was also my Doctor at Network 180. He did a good job helping me find the right medication that really made a difference. I had my therapist, at the Pine Rest Christian Counseling Center to talk to. She has proven to be a truly wise listener. I was very glad to have my friends at the Depression Bipolar Support Alliance every first and third Wednesday night. They helped me not feel so alone in my struggle. And lastly I am very grateful to all the readers of my blog who reached out to me after I shared the blog entitled "This Dark Enchantment". You came around me like true friends with your thoughts, prayers and words of encouragement. Thank you for that because it made a real difference.