Loneliness is a internal story that I am no longer telling myself.
Lately I have been beginning to disconnect from the storyline of loneliness by simply stepping back a step or two. I take a look at the feeling and just let it kind of float by as I watch it like a cloud and then reconnect to myself and the reality of the truth that I am enough in myself where I am at that moment regardless of who I am with or without. I am enough.
The Mindspace is setting me free!
I have logged in well over 200 hours since I began using Mindspace, the guided meditation app on my phone. Those 200 hours have had a transformational effect on the way my mind works. Now when I am faced with a worrisome thought or dramatic situation I find myself more able to find some space between that thought and who I am and how I choose to react or if I will react at all.
As I learn to be alone I rediscover who I am over and over again.
I, like most people, like to be liked. I want to be thought well of and have people’s favor. Over the past two years in the wake of my divorce after 29 years of marriage I am learning a new level of not giving a fuck what other people think. This is a very liberating place to be. To take on Mr. Rogers mantra of “I like you as you are.” is proving to be a powerful medicine. A spring tonic for the emergence of the deeper, larger, wider true me.